EVER FEEL that
you’ve made a big mistake by changing jobs? And that it’s too late to turn
back?
That’s how I felt
while visiting the Running magazine
office for the first time. There, during the Olympic Trials-to-nowhere, I met
the full staff and felt little part of it.
By now I felt as if
Nike and Running hadn’t hired me to
write but only not to write for its
competitor. My writing had gone nowhere since I finished my latest book, The Running Revolution, which itself was
going nowhere. My style of writing – sometimes instructional, often personal,
always conversational, and built from simple words and short sentences – wasn’t
the magazine’s.
The editor, Paul
Perry, envisioned this as a literary magazine about running. I can’t fault him
for that. It would be a noble effort and an artistic success.
Each issue would
include at least one major article by a writer from outside the sport: Hunter
S. Thompson’s manic take on the Honolulu Marathon, Ken Kesey’s whimsical view
of newly opened China. At best these writers offered a fresh take on the sport,
But not all of them succeeded. At worst they lacked insight into running and
passion for it.
At the least, Running needed a balance of articles and
columns by runner-writers that the magazine lacked at first. My pieces hid in
small, dark corners of each early issue. That was just as well, because I
wasn’t proud of what little appeared under my name.
The managing editor
had come west from Sports Illustrated
and tried to bring SI’s ways with her
– while seeming to look down on everything that wasn’t New York publishing. She
clearly didn’t like my style or content.
Editor Perry
required her to accept my byline, but she used my original copy as little more
than an outline to produce a revised (and shorter) piece, which read fine but
wasn’t mine. Without anyone ever saying so to me, her heavy edits signaled that
my writings weren’t good enough for this magazine.
On this first visit
to the small suite of offices on the Willamette riverbank, quick greetings were
exchanged. Then the staffers went back to work.
I had nowhere to sit
and nothing to do. No one wanted or needed my advice. No one asked me to stay
when I started to leave.
I retreated next
door to write more of what the magazine couldn’t use. Sitting on the deck at
the North Bank cafe, I alternately scribbled on a diary page and sipped iced
tea while watching Olympic Trials athletes and commoners run past on the bike
path.
This was the writing
that I did most and liked best. No one saw most of it, but it was as much worth
doing as when tens of thousands read it.
I realized while
sitting in the summer sun, looking out on the river, on a weekday, that my
(non)job at Running magazine came
with good (non)working conditions. I would accept them for now.
If I made a mistake
in signing on with Running, Nike made
one too by agreeing to pay me for doing next to nothing. I decided to ride this
gravy train a few stops longer before climbing off to find a real job.
Photo: Shirts on sale at the Trials to Nowhere, which
took me to Eugene in summer 1980.
[Many books of mine, old
and recent, are now available in two different formats: in print and as ebooks
from Amazon.com. The titles: Going Far, Home
Runs, Joe’s Team, Learning to Walk, Long Run Solution, Long Slow
Distance, Miles to Go, Pacesetters, Run Right Now, Run Right Now Training Log, See How We
Run, and Starting Lines, plus Rich Englehart’s book about me, Slow Joe.]
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